Because it's "MY" Blog - My last 18 hours

Nike & I

Today has been a combination of weirdness and funniness in a creepy way! 'That makes no sense' but errm it does in my head.

I think its kinda creepy when I'm in the city and unconsciously burst out laughing by myself... I mean I see people give me the "she must be high on crack" look...trust me, I know the look if you don't!

Anyways, I'll share my experience in the past 12 hrs coz I can...
PS: I'm at the subway on 34th st, heading to 48 & park to get the key to the apt frm my brother..

Anyhoos, nike & I went to jersey city lastnight..she has curfew especially when its not weekends. I decided to spend the night at her place!

Her man drops us off, we, hungry as usual and this was around to 12... Good thing everyone was asleep. I go into the kitchen, and her mom jst made this badass amala and ewedu stew! Hehehee, good food I know!

The only problem I have w/ food is eating alone.. I don't like it :( sad thing is most of my friends are trying to lose weight and I kinda feel like its impossible for them to when they're with me coz I eat like a rat.. Sad I know.. I eat everytime and anything... Well not anything per-say.. and I enjoy offering people food.. So imagine someone trying to lose weight hanging out with me :D

So I begged nike to eat amala at almost 12am with me and she cursed me out...telling me I'm evil and heartless...that how could I allow her eat amala at 12am when shez trying to lose weight.. I laughed in my head coz... yeh!  She ended up eating rice.. Erm what's the difference? I even thought she was gna eat bananas or something! tcheew.. She cracks me up, but I love her.

After eating, I called my kinda brother from another mother.. We spoke for almost an hour... Anyways, I'm still in search for his light skinned yoruba girl. In his words, " A girl that can ginger my swagger"

I had an interview d next morning by 10 which was today, I was too lazy to research the company, straighten my hair and pick out what to wear because almighty Amala knocked me out. So I told myself I'll be up by 7am since it takes an hour to get to the office I was gna be interviewed.

I woke up 7:15 thanks to the snooze button, researched about the company till 8, picked out what to wear, ironed, straightened my hair.. This was about 8:30. Jumped into d shower, was out in 20mins, dressed up, then I realized the amala was reacting to my stomach :( I started farting :'(

You know those farts you can't control.. Ɣε̲s o! Since I was running late, I grabbed my stuffs and ran out.

I got on the train, squeezed my small bum together to control the gas that wanted to embarrass me while reading about the company & listening to music on my smart phone.

I took the A train & transferred to the F train. The F train was kinda crowded..

Sometimes, i feel like there is something in me that makes me think of & do the weirdest things ever.. So dis white dude was in front of me and I started admiring his lips..I said to my self "see his pink lips, ehn ehn, only if he could shed some weight...I mean he doesn't look bad, his lips are so small" then I caught this black dude staring at me and I said to myself "he must be a construction worker, ah ah see his muscles, chai, na wa o! He looks ok sha" next thing, this lady & her son gets on the train at canal street only for me to hear 'iwo, joko si bi bai' I looked at them and smiled. I was looking too cooperate, I even put my hand inside my pocket feeling like someone that works on wall street. I wish o... I got off at 34th, walked to the office, was interviewed by two different people. 


The first lady was so sweet, I mean we talked about how people now use acronyms like OMG & d rest.. It was fun...then d 2nd lady said she liked me, loved my portfolio, took me around the office and told me to make sure I sent a thank you note and told me they were interviewing five people and picking three..I mean, I already feel like I got the job.. But that was the same feeling I had after my last 2 interviews... So I guess I'll keep my fingers crossed.

Left the office, went to my brothers office, got the key to the apt because I left mine at nike's and I'm heading to college point... That's home for me.. I'm on the 7 train writing this post...

I mean you don't have to think this post is hilarious like I do... It might be boring to you.. I guess this was what was in my head...afterall, that's the name of my blog :p

"Drive"

-Everyone's life is driven by something-

In my perspective,  the verb "Drive" could mean " to guide, control, or to direct." whether you are driving a car or a nail, or whatever, you are controlling, guiding and directing it at that moment.

The "Big Question" I ask myself is what is the driving force in my life, your life???

As a student, I was driven by pressure, deadlines and priorities i think...on the other hand, some people are driven by a painful memory,a haunting fear or an unconscious belief.  However, there are millions of values, emotions and circumstances that can drive one's life.

Some Common Drives

• Some people are driven by guilt:

They spend their entire lives running from regrets and hiding their shame .Guilt driven people are manipulated by memories. They allow their past to control their future and sometimes unconsciously punish themselves by sabotaging their future. For this reason, most people wonder through live without a purpose.

Yes, we are products of our past, but we don't have to be prisoners of it. God's purpose is never limited by our past.

• Some people are driven by resentment

They hold on to their hurts and never get over them. Instead of releasing their pain through forgiveness, they rehearse it over and over in  their minds. Some resentment driven people clam up and internalize their anger while others blow up and explode it onto others. If you ask me, I'll say its unhealthy and unhelpful.

Resentment always hurts you than the person you resent. while your offender has probably forgotten the offence and gone on with life, you continue to swim in your past and drown in pain.

 Your past is the past! Nothing will change it! You are only hurting yourself with your bitterness. For your own sake, learn from it and let it go.

• Some people are driven by fear

Although fear is learned, it maybe a result of a traumatic experience, an unrealistic expectation, one's background/up bringing, and so on.

However, regardless of the cause, fear driven people often miss great opportunities because they're afraid to venture out. Instead they play it safe and avoid risks. Fear is a self-imposed prison. It could be defeated by looking beyond the fear and moving against it with love and faith.

Personally, I love love adventure. I took an outdoor recreation class just for fun and loved hated it. I mean, i loved it when we went hiking, rock climbing and camping... Hated it when i went Kayaking.. by myself. I literally thought I was going to die.. I mean i prayed in all the languages i knew, confessed all my sins and did everything you could imagine. I learnt to paddle 30minutes after my professor said "Femi push the canoe into the river and if you're going left, paddle to the right and if you're going right, paddle to the left. I was so mad, I literally cursed him for the 3 hours I spent paddling. I even got stuck on a rock and on a branch... I mean it was a bitter sweet experience. 

Never again would i go Kayaking.. Good thing i ticked it off my bucket list :)

• Some people are driven with materialism

The desire to acquire becomes the goal of their lives. The drive to  always get more is based on the misconception that having more might make you happier, more important,secure,  and accepted in the society. This is so untrue.

- Possessions only provide temporary happiness because things do not change... we eventually become bored with them and then want a newer, bigger and a better version.

- Your value isn't determined by your valuables. 

- The most common myth about money is "The more money we come across, the more problems we see" - Notorious BIG

• Some people are driven by the need for acceptance

They allow the the expectations of others control their lives. Others are driven by peer pressure, always worried about what others think and say about them. Unfortunately, those who follow the crowd always gets lost in it.

I'm definitely sure I do not know all the keys to success but one key to failure is "trying to please everyone."

Being controlled by the opinion of others is a guaranteed way to miss one's purpose in life and God's purpose in one's life.

Personal Taste - 2

Quotes From My Favorite Korean Dramas.

• "Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what your gonna get"

• "So much that it feels like the universe will explode, for as long as it takes for the oceans to dry up, so much that i don't care if my soul burns into ashes, I love you" 

• " If the person you love is suffering because of you, would you let her go?"

• "Towards the past or present, I cant be sure... But one thing that i can be sure of is that I like you"

• Humans don't understand the reality of something until its over"

• "If you keep on thinking tomorrows always going to come, you're going to end up in pain. Those who said that they'll do things tomorrow are idiots"

• "Humans have this bad habit of turning to words like 'Never expected' or ' Accidental' whenever anything unfavorable happens"

• "I realized that the regret from not doing something at all is more painful than failure"

• "If one doesn't go face-to-face with it and shuts the door of miracles with his own hands, there is no way you'll receive happiness."

• Humans beings look for reasons when things don't go well, The circumstances, the timing, the weather and the luck. they pull out all these various excuses to console themselves. 'It wasn't supposed to turn out like this' 'If only I could do this over again.' 'Will it really turn out well if you get to do it all over again"

"when destiny comes, you'll know it for sure,

i'm not clear about it, I just know it is so,

A feeling of absolute certainty

of knowing you belong to each other

Thats how it's like

In my eyes, she's all i see"

• " Love doesn't ask you to discard your pride, it's about protecting a person. Don't do this in the future. Don't believe people so easily, don't fall in love so easily, don't forgive easily either. Please, become stronger" 

• "In  the past, I'd look at my friends that were good in math and I'd think, wouldn't love be an easy problem for them to solve too? I'd wonder about that. If love had an equation and you know the solution, maybe we wouldn't hurt each other, maybe we wouldn't misunderstand each other, and maybe we could just love. Don't you think so?"

• "You being by my side is the biggest comfort"

• " A person like you has never waited all day for a phone call from the person you like. Or felt that your heart might burst, just from looking at this person. You could die and come back from the grave and never know. The person who made me feel that way told me to come outside. No matter how wrong he was, I want to hear him out. What can i do? I'm just built like this, so what can i do?"

• I like you, No matter how hard i try not to like you, non matter how hard i try to erase you.... My efforts are so fruitless to the extent that i get angered by it"

• " I don't know when it started either, but now, I can't be without you.

• "Just because you were born male doesn't automatically make you a man. Becoming stronger from losing, yielding even though it is unfair, running away even though it's shameful, overcoming self confidence over time, that's how one becomes a real man"

• "This time i realized that you and I are from different worlds. We met as though in a dream, but now it's time for us to return ton our own worlds."

• "There's already someone I love. She's the first in my life and the rest of my life. She'll be the only one. You still want to marry me?

Personal Taste - 1

No way, I've realized that I've been looking at you

It won't do even if i hate it, stop it, or hide it

It can't go on like this

I will confess that I've fallen for you

You're everywhere in my dream

I know that it doesn't make sense but I love you

I like this sensation, you know how I feel even if we were to fight everyday

You always want it your way but I can accept anything from you, Only you

I'm lonely, my heart's crazy for you and you're the only one i see

No way, I've realized that I've been looking at you

It won't do even if i hate it, stop it, or hide it

It can;t go on like this

I will confess that I've fallen for you

You're everywhere in my dream

I know that it doesn't make sense but I love you

When I'm with you, I don't mind being nervous

I may be a little hasty, but you're the only one who can tell me what to do

I guess my heart was stolen before I knew it and I', missing you all day long

No way, I've realized that I've been looking at you

No way, I've realized that I've been looking at you

It won't do even if i hate it, stop it, or hide it

It can;t go on like this

I will confess that I've fallen for you

You're everywhere in my dream

I know that it doesn't make sense but I love you

Everything's so different , It's too different

I think I am falling in love, be my baby, be my baby

From head to toe, we have nothing in common

Now I wanna know more about you, be my baby, be my baby

No way, I've realized that I've been looking at you 

I'm happy whenever I say your name or look into your eyes

That will do and I want you too

Please say that we're alike

Wherever I see, you are the only one in my eyes

I know that it doesn't make any sense, but I love you

Personal Taste (Theme Song)

I just recently fell in love with Korean shows after my  housemate lured me into watching an episode ... I am now an addict.

"Best"  is a subjective term... But this is one of my favorite songs from the soundtrack of my Favorite Korean shows "Personal Taste" My new found addiction.

I recently just started watching it and it really melts my heart. Love the show, great story line, beautiful drama I must confess.

And yes, I read the subtitles because it is not in English.

Bla! Blaa!! Blaaaa!!!

This world is a very funny place. Life indeed is funny.

I sit at work and think of my life.. of what I have been through up to this point. I am indeed grateful. I have a lot to complain about but then I realize there are so many people going through worse things in this life that all i say is Thank you Lord.

Things seem to be going by so fast. I guess that is what life and growing up is all about. Looking back to when my sister and I use to go out together and pretend to be friends instead of sisters because we are nothing alike.. We did it for the the fun of it I think.

Or when I slapped my immediate younger brother for some reason I don't remember and he said he saw a vision to kill me.Oh my God, I was scared out of my life.. My mom locked me in my room.. Looking back, I thought it was the funniest thing ever.

Between, I would never forget the day my parents traveled out of town which was quite unusual. Sooo this dude that claimed he liked me came to pick me up because I told him i was hungry. He took me to sweet sensation bought food for my sister and I. After that, he wanted us to chill inside his car alone.. Then o.. I think I was less than 15 then or so.. Not so sure.. Hmm, i trust my sister, when she realized I came back with food, she just came to knock on the window of the car, that i needed to come in and my mom was back.. All was a lie.. we just wanted free food.

That was then though, We are all grown  now

Note from by Internship Supervisor <3

There are so many things going through my head.Which is really normal for me. I sit, laugh, joke and make fun of people while so many things go through my head. Thank God for the smile He keeps putting on my face.

When I grow up, I WILL write a book about Life in the perspective at which I grew up. And I want to make an impact in the society and make a difference in the lives of so many.. God willing and sparing my life.

Some years from now, what I have been thinking about is... going to china on vacation.. I mean when i get a job after grad.. which is less than a month from now. I want to treat my mom to China.. It's going to be we the girls.. my sis, mom and I.

I know my brothers would almost kill themselves when it comes to pass.. but too bad they are not women.

I dream big. That is who I am. I take advantages of every opportunity i have. Life indeed is too short... more so if the world is flat, why not make it your playing ground.


Bla!! Blaa!! Blaaa!!!

I have to get back to work. :)

Why Are You Married?

I still don't understand why married men cheat or rather have kids outside.... I mean i still don't get the logic behind it... You have a beautiful wife even if she's not beautiful il assume your love was blind... and wonderful children.

You're successful or better still comfortable... with all of that, why would some men have kids outside knowing on the long run he would be in for a big trouble.. Well he may not care if his wife finds out or he might, and claim it was a mistake and all... But i still don't get that...

You date a lady, you love her, you propose saying you want to spend the rest of your life with her.. and along the line.. I'll assume the love grows sour and you decide to keep a concubine outside. Then she begins to raise a child for you.

I wonder if these men ever think..How do they expect their wives to react to the situation?  once a man starts having kids outside.. thats just the height of betrayal, deception, double dealing, treason, let-down, perfidy, and the list goes on.

 Let us imagine if the tables were turned around.. if the men where in the women's shoes? How would they react?

How would a man feel if he realizes his wife is living a double life.. Having another husband illegally outside and claiming she works in another state, travels probably Mondays to Wednesdays for the supposed job and claims she works from home on Thursday and Friday.. How would the man feel? Or if the child the husband was raising wasn't his.. How would he react?

It's pretty annoying that some men think they are super smart.. Only if they knew we women could be smarter... we just decide not to.

It is not as if I've been married before or whatever but...this issue just disturbs me.. because I still don't get
Not like i support it, but i get the idea that married men sleep around once in a while because they say and i quote "You don't want to keep eating the same soup all the time" But Duhh, if you dint want to be eating the same soup or whatever why are you married?

I don't think some men realize that women have the same right as they do in a marriage.. A woman can also decide to mess around and cheat the same way the husband does.. she just chooses not, to protect her dignity and self image.

I'm a very curious human and i enjoy researching about the weirdest things.. I researched about marriage and affair and found 10 reasons why men cheat...I'll blog about it later. After reading, it still dint give enough reason for a married man to cheat on his wife... Sincerely, I really wouldn't care if my husband cheats.. as long as I do not find out because once i do.. its a wrap.

So imagine if you're just dating this dude and he constantly cheats and constantly begs you back.. And you been a fool keeps taking him back hoping he would change.. Dang, some ladies sha! My mom usually says "Do not manage in any relationship because if you do at this young age what would you do when you get married?" Think about it.

Someone Like You

"I heard that you're settled down,

That you found a girl and you're married now,

I heard that your dreams came true,

Guess she gave you the things I didn't give you,

Old friend, why are you so shy?

It ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,

But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,

I had hoped you'd see my face,

And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,

Never mind, I'll find someone like you,

I wish nothing but the best for you, too,

Don't forget me I beg,

I remember you said,

Sometimes it lasts in love, But sometimes it hurts instead,

You know how time flies,

Only yesterday was the time of our lives,

We were born and raised in a summer haze, 

Bound by the surprise of our glory days,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,

But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,

I had hoped you'd see my face,

And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,

Nothing compares,

No worries or cares,

Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made,

Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Never mind, I'll find someone like you,

I wish nothing but the best for you, too,

Don't forget me I beg,

I remember you said,

Sometimes it lasts in love, But sometimes it hurts instead."

--- Adele

I Just recently fell in love with Adele and my favorite song of hers is "Someone Like You." 

Hmmm, where do I start from? I mean where do I start to explain the deep pain and emptiness from an old flame that never lasted....This song explains it all. We can all agree that sometimes we feel a loss and we sometimes never get it back and sometimes get more than we expect.

I think most times, most people has had "Someone like you" in their life. And I can just imagine, listening to this song will definitely bring back memories and old hurts which makes you realize how much love means and how memories have the strongest holds on our heart strings. 

A totally amazing song, though it is not my kind of music. "Someone Like You" is very emotional and you can hear the emotion in Adele's voice, making the song sound very authentic.

 Her vocal is phenomenal.