When you have so many things going on in your life and there is really no one you can open up to or talk to.
You keep handling situations and issues on your own coz u realize you're in this world on your own.
People really dnt knw what you go through. No one can feel ur pains. All they see is ur struggles, tears, and sadness.
Then they try to console u by telln u nt to stress and everything wld be fine. C'mon we know everyth wld b fine.
We just need someone to tell us something different. Something like an answer to the situation or problem. And since that's impossible, how is the saying " a problem shared is a problem half solved"? Really solved?
I mean it works in some situations but not all.
I have a lame perspective, I agree... And it is, what's the essence of sharing ur problems/issues when it can't be half solved or solved at all. I mean there are some things we go through that no one can really do anything about.
I mean literally all they would do is just pity you. And that i hate.
I know I have a big problem. Its nt a problem persay, I'll call it a flaw. I keep things to myself too much tht it hurts. It hurts.. I don't know how to open upp and pour out my heart.. I have to be pressured to do so. Apparently, my EX realized that through my blog. I'm sorry, that's just who I am.
How amazing would it be if there was someone who knew u so well to the extent that he/she knew when something was bugging you even though you wore the "everything is just fine" look.
I'm super good at that... I can be laughing, smilling, playing, even acting like I jst won a lottery when I know deep down all isn't ok. Hopefully I find someone like that or better still I learn to open up which is something I'm working on... Its just so hard.
I'm sure a weirdo.
I should be asleep, but I just broke down.. I mean I need to once in a blue moon. That's how I feel relieved :) Hopefully I don't fall sick in the A.M so that I won't have to call off from work.
A friend once said - "God won't put us in situations that we can't handle" that's what I keep telling myself.. So I'm pretty positive that at the end, all would be fine. :)
