Because it's "MY" Blog - My last 18 hours

Nike & I

Today has been a combination of weirdness and funniness in a creepy way! 'That makes no sense' but errm it does in my head.

I think its kinda creepy when I'm in the city and unconsciously burst out laughing by myself... I mean I see people give me the "she must be high on crack" look...trust me, I know the look if you don't!

Anyways, I'll share my experience in the past 12 hrs coz I can...
PS: I'm at the subway on 34th st, heading to 48 & park to get the key to the apt frm my brother..

Anyhoos, nike & I went to jersey city lastnight..she has curfew especially when its not weekends. I decided to spend the night at her place!

Her man drops us off, we, hungry as usual and this was around to 12... Good thing everyone was asleep. I go into the kitchen, and her mom jst made this badass amala and ewedu stew! Hehehee, good food I know!

The only problem I have w/ food is eating alone.. I don't like it :( sad thing is most of my friends are trying to lose weight and I kinda feel like its impossible for them to when they're with me coz I eat like a rat.. Sad I know.. I eat everytime and anything... Well not anything per-say.. and I enjoy offering people food.. So imagine someone trying to lose weight hanging out with me :D

So I begged nike to eat amala at almost 12am with me and she cursed me out...telling me I'm evil and heartless...that how could I allow her eat amala at 12am when shez trying to lose weight.. I laughed in my head coz... yeh!  She ended up eating rice.. Erm what's the difference? I even thought she was gna eat bananas or something! tcheew.. She cracks me up, but I love her.

After eating, I called my kinda brother from another mother.. We spoke for almost an hour... Anyways, I'm still in search for his light skinned yoruba girl. In his words, " A girl that can ginger my swagger"

I had an interview d next morning by 10 which was today, I was too lazy to research the company, straighten my hair and pick out what to wear because almighty Amala knocked me out. So I told myself I'll be up by 7am since it takes an hour to get to the office I was gna be interviewed.

I woke up 7:15 thanks to the snooze button, researched about the company till 8, picked out what to wear, ironed, straightened my hair.. This was about 8:30. Jumped into d shower, was out in 20mins, dressed up, then I realized the amala was reacting to my stomach :( I started farting :'(

You know those farts you can't control.. Ɣε̲s o! Since I was running late, I grabbed my stuffs and ran out.

I got on the train, squeezed my small bum together to control the gas that wanted to embarrass me while reading about the company & listening to music on my smart phone.

I took the A train & transferred to the F train. The F train was kinda crowded..

Sometimes, i feel like there is something in me that makes me think of & do the weirdest things ever.. So dis white dude was in front of me and I started admiring his lips..I said to my self "see his pink lips, ehn ehn, only if he could shed some weight...I mean he doesn't look bad, his lips are so small" then I caught this black dude staring at me and I said to myself "he must be a construction worker, ah ah see his muscles, chai, na wa o! He looks ok sha" next thing, this lady & her son gets on the train at canal street only for me to hear 'iwo, joko si bi bai' I looked at them and smiled. I was looking too cooperate, I even put my hand inside my pocket feeling like someone that works on wall street. I wish o... I got off at 34th, walked to the office, was interviewed by two different people. 


The first lady was so sweet, I mean we talked about how people now use acronyms like OMG & d rest.. It was fun...then d 2nd lady said she liked me, loved my portfolio, took me around the office and told me to make sure I sent a thank you note and told me they were interviewing five people and picking three..I mean, I already feel like I got the job.. But that was the same feeling I had after my last 2 interviews... So I guess I'll keep my fingers crossed.

Left the office, went to my brothers office, got the key to the apt because I left mine at nike's and I'm heading to college point... That's home for me.. I'm on the 7 train writing this post...

I mean you don't have to think this post is hilarious like I do... It might be boring to you.. I guess this was what was in my head...afterall, that's the name of my blog :p

"Drive"

-Everyone's life is driven by something-

In my perspective,  the verb "Drive" could mean " to guide, control, or to direct." whether you are driving a car or a nail, or whatever, you are controlling, guiding and directing it at that moment.

The "Big Question" I ask myself is what is the driving force in my life, your life???

As a student, I was driven by pressure, deadlines and priorities i think...on the other hand, some people are driven by a painful memory,a haunting fear or an unconscious belief.  However, there are millions of values, emotions and circumstances that can drive one's life.

Some Common Drives

• Some people are driven by guilt:

They spend their entire lives running from regrets and hiding their shame .Guilt driven people are manipulated by memories. They allow their past to control their future and sometimes unconsciously punish themselves by sabotaging their future. For this reason, most people wonder through live without a purpose.

Yes, we are products of our past, but we don't have to be prisoners of it. God's purpose is never limited by our past.

• Some people are driven by resentment

They hold on to their hurts and never get over them. Instead of releasing their pain through forgiveness, they rehearse it over and over in  their minds. Some resentment driven people clam up and internalize their anger while others blow up and explode it onto others. If you ask me, I'll say its unhealthy and unhelpful.

Resentment always hurts you than the person you resent. while your offender has probably forgotten the offence and gone on with life, you continue to swim in your past and drown in pain.

 Your past is the past! Nothing will change it! You are only hurting yourself with your bitterness. For your own sake, learn from it and let it go.

• Some people are driven by fear

Although fear is learned, it maybe a result of a traumatic experience, an unrealistic expectation, one's background/up bringing, and so on.

However, regardless of the cause, fear driven people often miss great opportunities because they're afraid to venture out. Instead they play it safe and avoid risks. Fear is a self-imposed prison. It could be defeated by looking beyond the fear and moving against it with love and faith.

Personally, I love love adventure. I took an outdoor recreation class just for fun and loved hated it. I mean, i loved it when we went hiking, rock climbing and camping... Hated it when i went Kayaking.. by myself. I literally thought I was going to die.. I mean i prayed in all the languages i knew, confessed all my sins and did everything you could imagine. I learnt to paddle 30minutes after my professor said "Femi push the canoe into the river and if you're going left, paddle to the right and if you're going right, paddle to the left. I was so mad, I literally cursed him for the 3 hours I spent paddling. I even got stuck on a rock and on a branch... I mean it was a bitter sweet experience. 

Never again would i go Kayaking.. Good thing i ticked it off my bucket list :)

• Some people are driven with materialism

The desire to acquire becomes the goal of their lives. The drive to  always get more is based on the misconception that having more might make you happier, more important,secure,  and accepted in the society. This is so untrue.

- Possessions only provide temporary happiness because things do not change... we eventually become bored with them and then want a newer, bigger and a better version.

- Your value isn't determined by your valuables. 

- The most common myth about money is "The more money we come across, the more problems we see" - Notorious BIG

• Some people are driven by the need for acceptance

They allow the the expectations of others control their lives. Others are driven by peer pressure, always worried about what others think and say about them. Unfortunately, those who follow the crowd always gets lost in it.

I'm definitely sure I do not know all the keys to success but one key to failure is "trying to please everyone."

Being controlled by the opinion of others is a guaranteed way to miss one's purpose in life and God's purpose in one's life.